burning out again...

not sure why, i've recently i have felt really burning out again and slowing down in my work efficiency... perhaps i really had too many things to think about and take care of? Or is it something else?

Feels like taking a break from it all, maybe a short trip somewhere to get some peace of mind. But is it really peace i'm looking for or the wished companionship of someone close? Firstly, it'll be highly likely i'll be goin alone coz i've none someone close. Secondly, since if i'm just there to seek peace of mind and that it wasn't the purpose then it makes no point to go. Guess i'm back to square one again. Snakes do think too much for our own good.

Was visiting my fren's family this afternoon. It was his son's 1st birthday and i was happy n envious (with good intentions) that both his parents' children are finally married n settled down.. both he n his younger sis are younger than me. Was at another fren's place last night to celebrate 人日节 with some frens, and had to be there for another fren drowning himself with alcohol over frustration with relationships - also another snakey n just abit younger than i am. I guess he's right to agree with me that we think too much for others instead of ourselves, but then, isn't it that all we wanted is for all those around us, especially close ones, to be happy?

So... apart from what i wished for others,

i wish for someone who could be there with me, and who can look me in the eye and say that she wished that moment can be forever, and if not, to be together for as close as can be til age breaks all up,
i wish for a place we can call our own, to share our peace n happiness, n to share joy with family n frens,
i wish for a better future for all that i wanted them to have, a greater peace, a better life,
i wish for a happy n fulfilling life, shared n treasured, with all the strength n heart i can muster,
for one who'll see me thru all that and still smile at my dreamy thoughts and antics.

i'm still quite a selfish person ain't i...

Somewhere out there -
Linda Ronstadt and James Ingram (An American Tail)

Somewhere out there
Beneath the pale moonlight
Someone's thinking of me
And loving me tonight

Somewhere out there
Someone's saying a prayer
That we'll find one another
In that big somewhere out there

And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there
If love can see us through
Then we'll be together
Somewhere out there
Out where dreams
Come true...

And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there
If love can see us through
Then we'll be together
Somewhere out there
Out where dreams
Come true...