Rotten attitude

Just like to say, those few in the committee if you can't be bothered to even attend any meeting, please fuck the hell get another person be the committee member! After so many meetings all i've seen is attendence dropping close to half the members, i even had to go find and beg members to come attend. One of the recalcitrant even had to tell he's gotta reply emails and still won't get off his butt, hell, i don't care if you've 3 fucking MP letters to reply, the very fact you only sat in for 1 hour for 1st meeting and never came again, and your left-for-the-dead mindset of the committee, then go tell your director get another rep! Come-on, it's not as if i've no work to do and free to attend, i'm burning 3 straight weekends for the big november event month and working after 7pm almost every work day and still can't clear my work!!! Then what's the point i arrange and coordinate every meeting when so many doesn't want to come??!! Please at least have the courtesy to say you can't attend or send a rep after so many reminders!!! We can't wait a fucking half hour for you recalcitrants to think it's not worth your while being in the committee to even bother replying! Top management should peg attendence to staff appraisal, then send attendence to their Heads!

*Nb. The above only applies to those who attended less than 2 out of the now 6 meetings, without so much as valid reasons or not even bothering to say not attending.

Another is my immediate supervisor. Hey, i can cover your work, but please, attending 3 out of 5 external high-level meetings in the past 5 months is too much! Other agencies can bother to have their Heads and senior managers come almost every time, you still can ask me to do your work which you can't finish coz got "CCA" after 5.45pm! Eh, i'm not as free as you think leh, i manage 3 contracts, chasing after contractors and own staff over 4 divisions and i can't even get required info on time! I get seperate work from 4 different superiors and i don't even have anyone to share my work load! Not that i can't handle and whining, but pleaseee... don't give me work that is suppose to be your portfolio's responsibility! Still ask me to be Emcee for the event next weekend when u bluddy know who the VIP is! I've no problems doing so, but that only shows how gutless some higher level ppl is when faced with prospect of hosting someone at high office!

Saying of which, my head's head, wah lao, c'mon, i write the submission to senior managment coz i handle the project. What's so scared for?! It'll be my name and D's name there, not your bluddy name. The most i get sack lah, scared for your rice bowl for what?! Still ask me so many times confirm i put my own name and not yours. I ask for more funds than anyone else did in the past coz i know how undercutting will undermine our work, if you can't get your head out of the prevailing trends and follow the crowd, then how is work goin to change for the better?! I'd rather be vocal and get sacked, then keep quiet and suffer the more for it and let things rot and get worse. Thought u changed after your surgery, and i even gave u a gift from my holidays, you even reject out of fear from internal inquiries and still think can finally step over me when i tried to be friendly. Hope you retire soon, else you'll only get more frustrated by me longer.

If we can't even change the dead-end mindset of our own self and organisations, that what hope do we have in breaking out of the public perception that we do what they expect us to do for them... service to their every whim and stupidity, and threatened when we advise otherwise?! Has this become of the civil service after pampering our people so much that we can't even act or advise responsibly with wisdom, and all even for their own sake?!

Shitz.. thinking of all these just kills brain cells. Will salavage some brain for work tomorrow. Apologies if my language offended anyone, but the series of incidents these past week really got to me and i had to let rant here. Else i'll go rant at people.