Meaning of our lives...

The meaning of people's lives is a strange and often un-thought off kind of thing. Most of my friends would say just enjoy life and see where it takes them - which is not wrong, but are the missing something that they could really look back and say they've strove for, near the end of their lives?

Being happy though, i've to confess, is one of the basic goals that not everyone in this world can get to achieve.

My dreams are simple, and i've thought of it for so long, almost through my life. My purpose, is to fulfill what i truly believe i'm here in this world for... to make up for my past. I must be really torturous to nature then hahaha. So now i've turned to a nature lover, conservationist, environmentalist, still being the idealist that i can change the world. Crazy thought, but hey, i'm proud enough to say i've actually given it a shot, against the many criticsim of others. Well, maybe i'm just plain stubborn. Hahaha.

The meaning of my life, as again i truly believe, is to make this world a better place, both for nature, and for the people around, however contradictory it may seem. And yes, i've tried. Being a volunteer that shares my ideals, my thoughts and dreams, and make them BELIEVE, that this world could, and would, be a much better place if only we all try, however little each individual effort it may be, like a drop in the ocean. But then, it takes drops of water to make one ocean, and therefore, so long as we all try and never give up, one day we will make one ocean, even if it may be our grandchildren's grandchildren who will be the ones to see it happen. That, is the meaning of my life. And i've to do it with the 3 Hs - Head, Hands and Heart.

True, many a times i do get really down, and confused if it's all worth the efforts and strain. Afterall, it's all my own personal beliefs, and i could well be wrong my whole life. And there are times when i would be saddened, and fall down along the sides, thinking, this is such a hard and difficult journey in itself. Am i to walk it all alone? Are there anyone who'll walk beside me, to share my life, all the ups and downs, understanding me and living our lives walking the path together? Or is it destined that this is a path i must walk alone like so many others did? Or, is this path simply as what it is right from the beginning, a DREAM, and that eventually, should i decide not to be alone anymore, and walk the normal road with a love hand in hand, thru our lives? And leave the life i had lived for, behind...

Crossroads... its a difficult place to be and scary one to contemplate our lives at.


Happiness. It comes easily to some, and it never appears for others. I had my share of it. It comes most easily to one who is so young and innocent, as a wonderous child might be. Bless all the children of the world, for they see the life around with the purest eyes and minds, without corruption by all the grownup things we battle through each day. I can never say for sure if i really understand happiness, or experienced it. No one really knows for sure, but i believe there are many kinds of happiness. And happiness to me, is seeing the family and friends around me, happily living through their lives without much worry, the nature thriving with all its greens and creatures in the dynamic environments, the world to be peaceful, without much unneeded hunger nor thirst, no wars, no strife, no unnecessary evils. To have my family and friends happy for who i am, my living of my dreams to make it reality, my hand holding my other half's, so in love and being loved, hands, hearts and mind together, living our lives never apart nor too far from each other, to see our children into this world, and see the world as it really is, untainted, and see them grow up to fine young adults ready to start their own lives and carry our cherished memories thru theirs, and their children and more... that is my happiness. So eventhough it may seem that i depend on others for my happiness, in truth, it's my own happiness i'm shaping... coz it takes more than just me to have and share that kind of happiness. Maybe then, we will really come to understand what it means to be happy :)

Negativity and delusions are not good, but they teach us what we really should be searching for, and cherish the meaningful positives in our lives that we've taken for granted. We all fall down sometimes, and, depending on each of us, have to learn to pick ourselves up again either alone, or with the help of family and friends. And i'm glad to have stood up again, and would like to help others up as well... hmm... that's another purpose of my life i guess... be a friend as much as i could and be there when they needed (if only they tell me!!!).

There's no guarantee i'll not fall down again, and being lost in the negative pits of darkness again. But i know for sure, i'll have to, and will, get myself up again. Any friends there for me will be my blessings :)

Have u experienced happiness, or thought of being happy today? Let the past go and keep the cherished memories. We will find and understand happiness again, someday. So... if you've not tried to be happy today, SMILE!!! :) and i give u my blessings... coz it's my heartfelt wish that you'll be.

May u be cheerful and happy always ;)