Just an update...

Haiz... turns out all the trouble was caused by me alone... misunderstood my mum's intentions, and see how things had turned out...

now that we're back to right at zero, will be frens first and see how things will turn out... no regrets. but had to let her, and my heart, go in order to feel less emotional grieve - else i'll just be a wretched being. so now, i dun feel much for anything. Zombied again?

sounds alot like this song by Williams Brothers:

I'm going to live my life
Like every day's my last
Without a simple good-bye
It all goes by so fast

And now that you're gone
I can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

I'm going to open my eyes
And see for the first time
I've let go of you like
A child letting go of his kite

There it goes up in the sky
There it goes beyond the clouds
For no reason why
I can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

I'm going to look back in vain
And see you standing there
When all that remains
Is just an empty chair

And now that you're gone
I can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now

There it goes up in the sky
There it goes beyond the clouds
For no reason why
I can't cry hard enough
No I can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now


maybe somehow i couldn't really express to others how i feel inside...
all too deep and buried

but at least i've let go of myself now...


still... sometimes when i wake up and all i could think off is baobei...