learning to let go

that humans have an innate emotion of selfishness is a fact of life. no matter how it is debated that when a baby is born, he/she is born naked, clean, with none of the common sins that so apparently plague as one gets older. my argument? any infant or child always have their fist half-closed at any time. put your finger or anything near and they'll grab it.

as people say, the longer you've seen life, the more aware you'll be of the rights and wrongs in life, and everything in-between though they may still lay hidden under some nook or cranny, ready to spring a surprise on you when least expected. perhaps that may only be true for the growing youth, when they are slowly released from the shackles of a protectionist first decades and embracing an adult world, or someone who is having a helluva time getting more of what he/she desires, be it freedom, attention, riches or power. now what about wisdom?

for much of the common people (if "common" is the word to use), the longer they stay on this planet, the more they let go off. now why do i say that? because of experience - the black n blue bruises accumulated from the school of hard knocks. a person who gone thru several crushes and ill-matched relationships learns to let go of past attachments, an entrepreneur who had enough of losing money in businesses learns to take more calculated risks while letting go of negative feelings of loss, a family man who had to bid farewell to older relations and frens that had passed learns that time with loved onces is more precious than material things once letting go of the sadness, just like one loses their hair and touch with their surrounding as they, like many before, lets go of life that will burn out in time to come.

i haven't been too long on this planet, at least not in this life. still, had my fair share of loss, of childhood playtimes, of lost adolescent, friendships (not totally though, which i had realised) and relationships, told or kept. all that had made me realise the more one holds on to a belief which others did not really treasure, or simply did not realise, disappointment is the ultimate endpoint. still, like many a surprise that you'd thought you've had a handle on but still springs unexpectly, i've learnt to let go of one of the greatest belief i had ever had. the belief in my angel. that had happened months ago, long-held (10 years at least?), but that story's been all said and told. and now, as i yet stumble on still at the beginnings of a new life, i've still to let go of the believes that things will work out for me this time. however, it's getting there. i won't say more on friendships. of relationships... well... i think it's finally time to let go of any, which are only existant in my own head and heart anyway. like a new-friend of my at work said "if things are the way they come, and doesn't appear to go the way you want it no matter what is tried, then just let it be... take it with a pinch of salt and let go".

yes. it's "letting go" time again, and just take things as it is...