Let it be (Beatles)

Sometimes i have to keep reminding myself... again and again... but that's life for me.

"Let it be" by The Beatles.

When i find myself in times of trouble
Mother mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be... let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree,
There will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is
Still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be... yeah let it be, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be... let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be... yeah let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the night is cloudy,
There is still a light that shines on me,
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be... yeah let it be, let it be.
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be... yeah let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.


Just like to say, i'm not a Christian. This song typifies the times when i feel the need to be strong and just face whatever that is wrought upon, with a fool's courage.


A real fool indeed, sometimes.

a nice song... 至少還有你 (林憶蓮)

我怕來不及 我要抱著你
直到感覺你的皺紋 有了歲月的痕跡
直到肯定你是真的
直到失去力氣 為了你 我願意

動也不能動 也要看著你
直到感覺你的髮線 有了白雪的痕跡
直到視線變得模糊 直到不能呼吸
讓我們 形影不離

如果 全世界我也可以放棄
至少還有你 值得我去珍惜
而你在這裡 就是生命的奇蹟
也許 全世界我也可以忘記
就是不願意 失去你的消息
你掌心的痣 我總記得在那裡

我怕來不及 我要抱著你
直到感覺你的髮線 有了白雪的痕跡
直到視線變得模糊 直到不能呼吸
讓我們 形影不離

如果 全世界我也可以放棄
至少還有你 值得我去珍惜
而你在這裡 就是生命的奇蹟
也許 全世界我也可以忘記
就是不願意 失去你的消息
你掌心的痣 我總記得在那裡

我們好不容易 我們身不由己
我怕時間太快 不夠將你看仔細
我怕時間太慢 日夜擔心失去你
恨不得一夜之間白頭 永不分離

如果 全世界我也可以放棄
至少還有你 值得我去珍惜
而你在這裡 就是生命的奇蹟
也許 全世界我也可以忘記
就是不願意 失去你的消息
你掌心的痣 我總記得在那裡

在那裡...

Realization

Question to the stranger...

why do i put so much into my work? do i really love what i do? giving my best into whatever task i own? helping to pick up on slack of my superiors? spending so much time in office???

among the many other reasons at my disposal, most of which are probably true:

nice way to phrase it -

i take absolute pride in giving my best standard of work, regardless of what others opined, hence lay upon myself the responsibility to see things through, and feel duty-bound as an employee to make sure the organisation runs smooth where and when i have the ability to oil it.

honestly critical way to put it -

am accumulating negative feelings and reasons to quit the organisation when i can put up no longer, and leaving all the frustrations behind. hands and legs will make sure i won't starve before realising my dream, so i will keep on movin.


Revelation.

THIS is a job, Not a career, and certainly NOT my dream future.

watch closely the ticking timebomb's last stroke...

learning to let go

that humans have an innate emotion of selfishness is a fact of life. no matter how it is debated that when a baby is born, he/she is born naked, clean, with none of the common sins that so apparently plague as one gets older. my argument? any infant or child always have their fist half-closed at any time. put your finger or anything near and they'll grab it.

as people say, the longer you've seen life, the more aware you'll be of the rights and wrongs in life, and everything in-between though they may still lay hidden under some nook or cranny, ready to spring a surprise on you when least expected. perhaps that may only be true for the growing youth, when they are slowly released from the shackles of a protectionist first decades and embracing an adult world, or someone who is having a helluva time getting more of what he/she desires, be it freedom, attention, riches or power. now what about wisdom?

for much of the common people (if "common" is the word to use), the longer they stay on this planet, the more they let go off. now why do i say that? because of experience - the black n blue bruises accumulated from the school of hard knocks. a person who gone thru several crushes and ill-matched relationships learns to let go of past attachments, an entrepreneur who had enough of losing money in businesses learns to take more calculated risks while letting go of negative feelings of loss, a family man who had to bid farewell to older relations and frens that had passed learns that time with loved onces is more precious than material things once letting go of the sadness, just like one loses their hair and touch with their surrounding as they, like many before, lets go of life that will burn out in time to come.

i haven't been too long on this planet, at least not in this life. still, had my fair share of loss, of childhood playtimes, of lost adolescent, friendships (not totally though, which i had realised) and relationships, told or kept. all that had made me realise the more one holds on to a belief which others did not really treasure, or simply did not realise, disappointment is the ultimate endpoint. still, like many a surprise that you'd thought you've had a handle on but still springs unexpectly, i've learnt to let go of one of the greatest belief i had ever had. the belief in my angel. that had happened months ago, long-held (10 years at least?), but that story's been all said and told. and now, as i yet stumble on still at the beginnings of a new life, i've still to let go of the believes that things will work out for me this time. however, it's getting there. i won't say more on friendships. of relationships... well... i think it's finally time to let go of any, which are only existant in my own head and heart anyway. like a new-friend of my at work said "if things are the way they come, and doesn't appear to go the way you want it no matter what is tried, then just let it be... take it with a pinch of salt and let go".

yes. it's "letting go" time again, and just take things as it is...