DeSeNsItIzE

Desensitize: the opposite of sensitize.
Sensitize: to make sensitive (Oxford 6th Ed.)

To lose or reduce one's sense or senses, either through physical pain-hardening or mental thought. The climax as the ultimate high while cutting oneself, the feeling of exhilaration or happiness while bleeding oneself dry.

If one is willing to give one's all in support of a fren's happiness that does not involve oneself, praying every single day that fren and her fren will be blissfully together always, coz one is fren's good fren, helping give advise n lending ear to fren. And yet by doing so every time is tearing away at one's heart n soul, but one cannot just go in case fren will need one's friendship. So in the end, one can only give his care n concern n time, giving away pieces without replacement n making sure fren is happy. The only way to do so is to desensitize oneself, to give happily without showing hurt nor pain, until all is gone n nothing left except an empty skeleton. Double-edged sword b'cos desensitize may also remove one's sensory ability not just towards fren, but may also towards other frens as well.

Happiness while bleeding oneself dry, all that's left an empty shell.