Happy for her... :)

jus had a chat wif the angel (hereon will introduce her as LY). her guy had flown off today to india for NS training and eventhough she had not formally accepted him as her boyfriend, she woke up crying today knowing he's leaving, and will not be receiving his sms and calls to wake her up and asking of her for 19 days.

ah... she is finally falling in love again. :) Now that i've let go of her, i know there never was any real chance for me. Her guy had all the opportunities, being her former classmate and always going out as a group, able to send her and her frens anywhere they like wif his private transport, and all the advantages of accessibility. Sure i'm a little jealous, but then i too am really happy for him, for it is his time. There's simply too little possibilities then that LY will go out with me however i tried, and too easy for him to cajole her out for meals, to be there for her and the like. But then, it's not my time... yet.

It's still hard chatting wif her over the phone, listening to her heartfelt yearnings and times with him and her friends, and suppressing the feelings within myself the close friendships and relationships i've gone without over the years, and not knowing when i'll have again. But i definitely wish the both of them well, and i'll still be there for her as her good friend, listening to her heartstrings as needed. I'm happy if she's happy. My time will come... i'll just have to open my eyes and let my tormented soul go as well...

Just one last note. A niece of mine with whom i've played wif during my youth, and who migrated to the States more than 15 years ago, is finally getting married too. Have not been in contact with her since then. Her, my ex, LY and a friend who just became a father are all happy stories that have arisen around me. Causes for celebration. I will. In the form of a private wish for them to be happy always. Cheers to all.

I am getting too old for this (they are all younger than me).