angelia

hmm.... guess it's been goin for too long now. the angel's more grown up and have more priorities than 2 years ago... should it be time i fade into the background and stop lingering? afterall, i no longer expected much to come out of this friendship now that she is having a new life.

firstly, i'd really like to wait the 2 and half years when she finish studies even if in the end it may come to nothing, eventhough i've already waited 2 years, ended my studies early to come back for her (no regrets), cared for her i read the news almost everyday while in Aussie just to be sure she's all right, and many things that i've not said to her...

but on the other, have i finally grown tired? no longer feel she think of me as her good fren as it used to be back then, the ship slowly falling into decay and neglect... shld i still wait? an feeling so old now, jaded with friends who never were there, and am reluctant to go thru the same again, peaceful solitude yet grieving companionship, yearning for someone truly loved, treasured and embraced...

guess the feeling's too deep to let go... even if it'll lead me falling, badly cut and bruised... i'll wait for her for now...

...though many a times at this point somethings dun usually turn out as expected...